Well, it’s the 2nd day of another week – one more week seems to be whizzing by.
Felt pretty groggy today in the morning getting up and getting to work – esp since had a dinner out last night and got back late (well, ‘late’ by my usual standards which means I hadn’t hit the sack by the usual 10.30-10.45pm). Thought of getting up at 5am as usual (to catch my 6.40am bus to work) – but ditched the idea and woke up at 6.15am instead.
On the way to work, was going through a blitz of thoughts, as usual.
Like why do I continue to be in a job where everyday of my 5 day week I have to leave home at 6.45am, reach back home around 7.30pm (after a 2 hour office-home journey) and then take office calls until about 9pm!
And I really don’t think the job I’m in is even my ‘calling’! The money’s good sure, but I’m no longer bothered about hikes, progressions etc. Want to get out!
I want to break free.....there goes Queen again!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Proactively Reacting....?
So I'm reading my horoscope for today and it's telling me to basically take a chill pill - "Care less, worry less, relax more....and interestingly, strive to avoid prejudice, passion..and paranoia".
Now I'm not really a live-my-life-the-way-my-horoscope-tells-me-to kind of person.
But the words couldn't help resonating considering the kind of start to my day that i had - talk about miscommunication!
MIL* expected me to do one thing - which I had not heard her say I should do. So I left to work not doing it...and turns out it was a 'shock horror' situation. Husband knew about me having to do it, but didn't mention it to me in the morning because he thought I had already done it! So i got to work...MIL called me and spoke to me...and I got irritated because I think home discussions should be had at home (unless it's urgent). Don't see the point of me being in office and MIL telling me blah blah when I'm surrounded by work, co-workers etc.
Anyways, i've decided to let it go. But I'm through just half my morning right now. I have a feeling once I get back home today, MIL will inevitably bring it up again.Don't want to react before she even says something!!
*MIL-MotherInLaw
Now I'm not really a live-my-life-the-way-my-horoscope-tells-me-to kind of person.
But the words couldn't help resonating considering the kind of start to my day that i had - talk about miscommunication!
MIL* expected me to do one thing - which I had not heard her say I should do. So I left to work not doing it...and turns out it was a 'shock horror' situation. Husband knew about me having to do it, but didn't mention it to me in the morning because he thought I had already done it! So i got to work...MIL called me and spoke to me...and I got irritated because I think home discussions should be had at home (unless it's urgent). Don't see the point of me being in office and MIL telling me blah blah when I'm surrounded by work, co-workers etc.
Anyways, i've decided to let it go. But I'm through just half my morning right now. I have a feeling once I get back home today, MIL will inevitably bring it up again.Don't want to react before she even says something!!
*MIL-MotherInLaw
Monday, July 19, 2010
No more sitting on the old school bench
Queen crooning "I want to break free" is running in my head today. A few days ago it was "Boulevard of broken dreams" ..with the line "my shadow's only one that walks beside me" truly resonating with moi!
This year so far has turned out to be one of the most challenging: I'm actuely conscious of wanting change - at work, in my personal life, in the way i'm living my life everyday. But what kind of change? Ah, well, that is really hard to define.
It's as if I wnat to change the status quo about everything: I want to change my job, I want to consciously make an effort to exercise more regularly (followed by lose weight and look better!), I want to prove I can cook good if i put my mind to it.....I want to read more.....listen to more music....the list is endless!
This year so far has turned out to be one of the most challenging: I'm actuely conscious of wanting change - at work, in my personal life, in the way i'm living my life everyday. But what kind of change? Ah, well, that is really hard to define.
It's as if I wnat to change the status quo about everything: I want to change my job, I want to consciously make an effort to exercise more regularly (followed by lose weight and look better!), I want to prove I can cook good if i put my mind to it.....I want to read more.....listen to more music....the list is endless!
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